With my eyes closed, I try to sleep.
Pins and needles, stabbing as they begin their dance
upon my bare and itching arms.
Moving quickly to include my legs,
atop my skin, like “bugs,” they begin to prance!
“Creeping” and “digging,”
severe is the burn!
Complicated and complex, maybe I am,
but where in the hell is there any concern?
Keeping me awake all night,
as everyone else around me dreams.
Ice packs, ointments, and different pills,
not enough to silence my screams!
now my neck is out!
why is this happening?
This is not “normal,”
I have no doubt.
My doctor’s clueless, telling me how sorry they are.
With no answers to offer,
I’m sent on my way.
Leaving me with yet, another invisible scar.
It’s happening more often now.
Almost nightly, it comes on fast.
Spreading like “wild fire,”
as I’m being harassed!
Almost 7 hours of this hell,
There is no relief.
I’m left in utter disbelief!
What I’m experiencing,
Feeling as if on fire,
I can’t keep doing this.
The alternative, dire!
My EMG, normal,
or so I’m told.
No nerve damage, no neuropathy.
Once again, all alone and left out in the cold.
I know I’m not the only one with this affliction.
I wish someone would read this and bring me some hope.
I don’t know where else to turn.
I’m afraid of what I might do if I’m left with this friction.
The slightest itch makes my anxiety soar.
I try to be mindful and to keep calm.
but last night I was too late!
What am I to do?
I can’t sit still,
and neither could you!
Out of desperation, more medication I take.
I know of nothing else to do.
When all of my efforts fail,
I tend to derail!
How many doctor’s must I attain?
Primary care, GI, neurologist, opthamologist, OB/GYN,
urologist, cardiologist, hematologist, orthopedist, pulmonologist,
rheumatologist, psychologist, ENT, and dentist, too.
No pun intended, but what a pain!
Where do I go from here?
As nightfall is imminent,
I begin to fear!
The anxiety building,
I feel it in my chest.
To stay upon the path,
I’m doing my best……………..