I’M YOUR PAIN WHILE YOU REPAY! HMMMM…………….SAD BUT TRUE!
I’M YOUR PAIN WHILE YOU REPAY! HMMMM…………….SAD BUT TRUE!
Just another good tune by Pearl Jam. Enjoy!
Just a short update regarding the weather over here. 3 days in a row of nothing but pure sunshine. Not even a pop up shower. I see no storms in sight.
I’m really surprised, myself, because today was my 30th birthday and I wasn’t sure I was gonna make it through the day, but the sun couldn’t have been shining brighter!
Spent the day with my family, my mom, my hubby, my 4 kids and my adorable little Xander, and I better not forget my baby, Molly!
I got another pair of boots for my boot collection. I have a little confession to make, I’m addicted to boots. Can’t ever have enough and I don’t believe in regular shoes. I had flowers delivered to me, got a nice candle and a really cool “thingy” to put my candle in, and tomorrow my hubby is taking me to get another pair of boots because, well, I just still need another pair. I can’t help it.
We hung out, put up the Christmas tree, got it all decorated, and then watched the Jayhawks win another game of college basketball. Not talking about the game last night! Had take out from Margarita’s and I did get 3 bites of my burrito down. No worries, I’ll get it eaten over the next 3 or 4 days. I did eat a piece of pumpkin pie. I was out of my bed for 5 1/2 hours, nice distraction, because I’m feeling it now, but it was all worth it. Tomorrow I will have to get up and out if I want that other pair of boots for my collection, and I do, so I will……………………………
I hope the sun keeps shining.
Today is your birthday and I’m feeling a bit blue because I cannot be there with you. It was great seeing you yesterday and I’m really looking forward to seeing you tomorrow, but I really wish I could be with you on this special day.
I just wanted to tell you happy birthday and I’m sorry I’m not there for you. It’s not because I don’t want to and I know that you understand.
You already know that you mean the world to me and how very much I love you. You gave me life. You’ve always been here for me, through the good and the bad. You always took such good care of me and you still do. I always had the things I needed and then some. You are the hardest working woman on this planet and I sincerely mean that. I sure hope you can retire some day. I know how much you love me. I know I wasn’t always the “best kid in town”, but you continued to love me all the same.
We’ve made a lot of memories together, over the years. Memories I’ll never forget. My favorites are all of our get-aways, just you and me and the ones where Mary joined us. I know when you take Mary and I at the same time, we do misbehave at times, ok every time. I know you never thought we were too funny, but looking back on it now, you must admit we were kind of funny. All the giggling, like young teenage girls, after “lights out” when you were trying to sleep. Our going out for our 10 minute smoke breaks and coming back 5 hours later, drunker than skunks. You may never find that part funny. The last time when you had finally had enough and told us to shut the @#$&^%* up. Immediate silence filled the air, not another sound to be heard for the rest of that night. EPIC Now you know that part is funny, even to this day. Classic!
I’ll always treasure all the good times at the lake, the house right on the water, the dock and boat, all the fun times out in the boat, the one and only time I attempted to ski, the swimming, the fishing, going to the water slides, going to ride go karts, going to Bagnal Damn, when me, you, and Mary would wrestle around, the time Lucy jumped out of the boat when we stopped to refuel and she missed the dock and I was fully clothed, shoes, jeans, jacket and all because it was Fall and I, like a mother with a child, didn’t think twice and over the edge of the boat I went and into the water. I had to save her! Everyone laughed and made fun of me, saying she could swim, but she was going under and I about went under, too, with all those clothes on. I was not about to let my dog drown.
I’ll always remember how we used to play Scrabble all the time, from the time I could only spell a few small words. You truly have the patience of a saint. I sure wish I had inherited that “patience” gene. When I got older, maybe upper grade school age, you bought me a really nice Backgammon Game in a leather case, which I still have and use to this day. We played the games a lot, just you and me. I always had so much fun getting that time with you to myself. Then there was the card game Skit Scat that we used to play as a family at the lake, all the shopping sprees, taking Rachel to The Mall of America for her 13th birthday, turning into a rotten teenager, of which we will not go into. Let’s go back a few years to the time I skipped school, for the first time in 2nd grade, back in the day when they were dumb enough to let kids go home for lunch. I went home for lunch, alright. It was the getting back to school that never happened because a friend and I thought it would be much more fun to sit in the apartment building across the street from the school and my teachers house. I about gave you a heart attack on that one. For that I am truly sorry, but again looking back on it now, it was kind of funny.
Through it all you never disowned me, I’m sure you probably thought about it a time or two. You always held me responsible for my actions while all my friends mothers blamed me and didn’t want their kid hanging out with me any more because I was a bad influence. That’s a funny one. We all still hung out together anyway so it really didn’t matter, but just for the record, at that time I was still a follower. I hadn’t blossomed into the leader I’ve become.
There are so many memories I would have to write a novel to tell about all of the good memories we created on this journey.
With all the circumstances and “bad” times we had to go through as a family, you became the strongest woman I’ve ever known. You should be proud because I am very proud of you. In the blink of an eye, our lives were, forever, changed. You became widowed and us 4 kids became fatherless. At the time you were a stay at home mom, as most moms were back then, with 4 small children. You picked yourself up, I don’t know how, but you did. You went to work. You went to school and got your degree and worked your ass off to take care of us kids and you did a very good job of that, regardless of what you think. I really, honestly, don’t know how you were able to do what you knew you needed to do. You amaze me to this day. I can tell you, right now, I never could have done that. In my eyes, you truly are a saint. You’re the most giving person I’ve ever known. I only wish you had received half of what you’ve given. I’m not only talking about giving things whenever someone was in need, you also gave from the heart, like none other! You’re truly a gift from God, that just keeps on giving.
I just wanted to tell you, again, how much fun we’ve had on our journey and that you are the kindest, most caring, most honest, loving mother anyone could ever ask for if they got to choose. I’m glad you’re my mom.
Happy Birthday from the “Golden Child”. Ha Ha Remember that one? Thank you for all you’ve done over the years for me and my family. I love you, Mom. You’re the best
Tammy/the golden child
I’m NOT like the others!
Today is Thanksgiving. This is the first year we’ve had the family come to our house to celebrate this day of thanks. I was able to be up and out of my bed for 7 1/2 hours, that’s a long time for me, but I made it. I was distracted from my pain with all the commotion and visiting with my favorite people, MY FAMILY! The most important people in my life. The people that I KNOW, without a doubt, will always be here for me because we are a very close family, as I will always be here for them. We have a strong bond. There are so many broken families out there, people that don’t even speak to their own parents anymore, or parents that have disowned their own kids. In my family, blood truly is thicker than water. We don’t get together and have family feuds, never! Holidays are always pleasant gatherings, loaded with lots of hugs and love. We all have a great sense of humor so there’s always plenty of laughter.
As sick as I am, it’s on this day that I ALWAYS remember that I do have plenty of things to be thankful for. The other 364 days of the year I may forget because I get all caught up in myself and all the misery, I feel, from all the chronic illnesses and pain. I’m going to get back to writing down 3 things every day that I am thankful for. I’m already supposed to be doing this, I know, but I’m not always the best student. Even on “the not so good days” if I use the brain God gave me, I can come up with 3 measly things I am thankful for each and every day. Today I am thankful for my family, my friends, and my baby (my dog), Molly.
Today the sun shined bright on me! For that I am very thankful.
I hope all of you who celebrate Thanksgiving had as good of a day as I did.
Happy Hanukkah to all of you who celebrate this holiday. Pretty awesome for these 2 holidays to come on the same day. It only happens every 1200 years, according to the news.
To all that I love
and to those I have yet to meet
I am grateful~*
“ ...And on this day,
all the people you meet,
all that life from generation to generation
is from so many different places in the world
it flows together and meets you here like a life giving water
if you only open your heart & drink...